As I reread chapter 89 before journaling, I suddenly noticed all of the possessives which referred to God's traits: "Your love ... Your loyalty .... My choice ... My servant ... Your miracles ... Your skies and earth ... Your world ... Your name ... Your arm ... Your head ... Your kingdom ... Your presence ... Your kindness ... My loyalty and love ... my Father, my God, the Rock, my Savior ... My agreement ... My demands ... My commands ... My holiness..."
There's a distinct turning point at verse 38, however. The possessives turn to man in his sin. No wonder in verse 46, the writer asked, "Lord, how long will this go on? Will You ignore us forever ? How long will Your anger burn like a fire? ... Where is Your love?"
It's when we deny God's sovereignty over our lives that we begin to focus on ourselves, and that is idolatry. Unless we fix in our hearts that all we have and all we are exist but by God's grace -- that everything around us is His creation in His own timing -- we will be unable to give Him full sovereignty over our lives. He deserves no less.
Father, forgive me for the times when I want to be in charge of things -- when my selfish desires override my love for You. Help me to envision how You want to be my Lord. And like riders on a bicycle built for two, help me to be satisfied with the back seat, content in the knowledge that You are in control, and all You ask is that I keep pedaling.
Your Brother In Christ,
Gary Ford